Have you ever wished you could do better? Or...just Knew you could do better but nobody could see it?

I used to join any singing competition I see. Lately, I find that, I'm not as enthusiastic as before. Is it because people have more or less known I can sing and there's no need to show them anymore?
Or is it because I'm sick of that Peak I've attained and I just can't break out of it to go further and get better?

Most of the time I get through auditions, and even till Finals.
But that's IT. And it really seems like that's the highest point I'll ever reach.
I am still in search of The element to push through the Peak.
I never win, I never get any prizes. Sure, to some, those are secondary as compared to the experience gained.

And what I really mean is, I just want to do better and I suppose the next goal is to win something, like finally?



It's scary that I'm losing heart in something I've always felt my passion would never dwindle. Passion is important to sustain a creative hobby such as singing. It's not something you can force upon somebody. I still enjoy singing leisurely, but to look at it from a professional view...I can't even see where I'm heading already.

I hope this is just a passing phase.