For the past week, a lot went through my head.

I struggled to keep those voices out of my head as I could hardly hear myself think. Ironic lah, since I'm thinking, but I mean, it was hard to be in reality and be in my own world simultaneously and I kinda screwed the balance a little this week.

I knew I was rather easily agitated this week, and I tried my best to avoid my friends so I would not risk shouting or snapping at one of those whom I care, and most definitely do NOT want to shout at.

I don't know why this came over me all of a sudden. I guess, it's just one of those phases that you realise a little bit more about Life?

And as I'm typing, Blogger is implementing its new system of correcting your words like Microsoft Word. It just underlined "realise" in red because it was an "s" instead of a "z".

oh so anal. Let us blog in peace!

I got quite frustrated at how some things are done and how people do some things.
I hate second guessing all the time and I find myself increasingly having to do that; and not only that, I find myself second guessing my own intentions for the fear of miscommunicating my point to whoever it is.

And it's as if some Dementor swept by my room one night and sucked me of all my happiness and positivity.
pardon the Harry Potter language...can't wait for the movie!

All of a sudden, it seemed as though there's a dark cloud raining above me. I did not even realise how negative I had been until I found words relating to poor looks ringing in my head.
They were ringing about myself, and at an alarming rate and volume until I couldn't comprehend my own inner thoughts.

And matters worsened when I took comments from others a little toooo personally this past week.
Especially radio journ class.
omg...WTF, seriously.

I can't stand myself getting all mean as I complained to Steph. That diva me was frightening.
I hope it gets tucked back into the most remote corner of me and stay there for...now. haha.

I guess I just needed to release all the pent up negativity and now, I'm feeling a lot better after making Catherine and Steph's ears sore. =P
I have not been so angry in such a long time. It was a mixture of exasperation, frustration and anger topped with some low self esteem.

Anyway, such revelations come once in awhile...lol. All I can hope is my EQ increases with each outburst and may each outburst take a longer time to appear in between and last much shorter each time.
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I just went for facial today.
My face...is all red and splotchy now.

Good luck to the strangers who may bump into me tomorrow...may their hearts be strong enough to withstand the shock I may give to them.

LOL. talking cock.