I was asking Catherine, why are some people just born gorgeous?
she said "命"
haha. how apt.
sigh. How is my "命" then?

I look in the mirror and all I see are flaws.

Everyone in my lecture is used to using the term "perfectionist" to describe the hard-core picky students who mind even which font size goes, etc.

But to me, that's only perfectionism at academic level.
Am I shallow when I always seem to judge people on their appearance?

But I don't go shunning people who may not know green don't exactly go with purple, etc.

I just feel everyone can be better looking, everyone can make an effort to dress up a little more, etc.

Surely you would feel someone with nice fingernails, well-dressed would be more pleasant than someone who is in mismatched clothing and has acne problems?

Of course that's the surface level judging, but I feel that is the part of you to take care of FIRST.

Because everyday, as you make your way to school or work, your image, your body, is what others see first. And it is very important to maintain a clean image.

Of course, academic perfection probably outweighs surface perfection a whole lot but I do believe prettier people always get the better end of the deal.

I can't keep up with my own standards.
I need perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect body, perfect skin tone,etc.

all of which I've only attained half. I've even only got double eyelid on one eye. fuck that.

what good is half!?

OK, Devil JH is dominating Angel Jh today.

bad news......