I don't know why I teared up while talkin to Eve earlier on.

Initially, I was quite angry at the misunderstanding because to see something else being read from your actions which is not what you had intended is just exasperating.

Perhaps I was also stressed out with starting attachment at a familar yet strange place at the same time that I just let it all out with my tears.

I just don't like it when people misread my intentions.

If she really wanted to go, I'd have let her, because it's no big deal in the sense whereby if I don't go, I won't die...so...it's ok.

I just don't understand why my intentions can be misread to such an extent where I seem almost fake and hypocritical when I really did not mean for things to be this way.

Perhaps my tears were mixed with some anger, exhaustion and fear of the new sem ahead.
exhaustion at having to keep up and keep from people thinking you are lazy, useless and fake.

fear of the unknown.

anger...at my choice.

but it's all set to go...and mon's D-Day.

from now, we're a team. and we should be as diplomatic and sane as possible and keep our emotions at bay while we attempt to work things to their best.


-Heatwave Promos Exec,
Jh