This is the 1pm news update with me, Jh.

My tongue is gona be tied tmr la. zzz.

I went to watch The Simpsons with my sis just now.
funnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

I'm still not done reading HP.
Don't call me slow! :X
I don't really wana end HP yet......
hehe.
(don't need to read too much into this comment...Harry doesn't die la. oops!)

Ytd, Clarence and Jon were very bored.
very very bored.

So they started playing tic-tac-toe...with tissue.

Steph: do you realise you can only play once??!

LOL.

















I don't know how they can tell which tear mark was whose...hahaha!!

During MediaLaw today, we were discussing about copyright and Walt Disney...and a certain convo went like this

Vinod: what about some others?

someone: The Lion King!

Glen: Tarzan!

Me: huh? isn't Tarzan in The Lion King?

Steph Gwee + Deone: LOL HUH

Me: LOL. no? hahahaha I lump all the jungle bits together la. hehe.

Media Law's fun. We learnt how to create and edit a brand new Wiki page. The technology is quite cool.

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Yesterday was the first time I set foot in Republic Polytechnic.

It looks very nice, but rather industrial-like.
Would make a great place for outdoor photoshoots though.

The performance went well despite my sore throat and cough. yay!
Took some pics...will post them up when I get them from Doreen.

Oh and RP actually rents digicams to their students!
We didn't bring any cameras and Doreen went to rent one from her school.
damn cool...

sing till you drop

Singing an average of 4 hrs per day when you have a bad sore throat/flu/cough is no joke.

I've been shuttling between School, VA and home for the past 3 days.

After tomorrow I'm gona eat a tom yam cup noodle to reward myself :X
Then try to recover from the illness. ;P

IT'S HERE!

10.20 am.
The postman said in Punggol alone, there were 90+ deliveries to be made...and he was in the same lift as my parents
lol.
OK, who cares about WISP reflections now. HAHA.

disappointment

A lot of things can happen that can make me disappointed. But amongst all, one of the most disappointing is to find out my friends smoke...

I used to get angry or even upset when I discover things like that back at sec school. In fact, I'm surprised at my perseverance.
I even remember HF risking making the guys angry when she hid their lighter...haha.

But now, I just get disappointed.

Why?

To many people, this might be a trivial matter...
It's just smoking...
-.-

Oh well, it's just my opinion...

Nisha and I went over to the worksite to film the banglas and indian workers for the trip home after their work.
Harun was the Bangladeshi worker we're featuring in our documentary. He was busy but yet he made sure we got a cab and even came out fifteen minutes after we bade goodbye and checked on us.

It made me think...the basis of being human is because we are all primarily innocent and pure. The willingness to help another fellow being is default within us.

If not for this project, I might still be having mixed impressions about foreign workers. But Harun and Gopal has really let me see, the goodness in people exist irregardless of race, religion, age, etc.

It sounds so cliched...but to see it for myself is really impactful. It really touches me how they can go all out to ensure our filming gets done smoothly.

sigh...People. We are such simple yet complicated things.
oxymoron!

Namie Amuro-Hide and Seek

Ooh I like Namie Amuro's image on her latest album [Play].
Hot.
can't believe she's a mother already!damn.

























This is the MV of her first single...Hide and Seek. nice!
Quality's a lil poor though.


Youtube is buffering rather fast these days...due to competition?haha.

Some pictures I took during the National Stadium's Closing Ceremony which I'm rather satisfied with...
As you may notice, I used the stadium light as a theme for most of my pics...
I just liked its presence amidst my photos...I feel it's a great anchor for the pics.

































































































































































But of course, these are nothing compared to Pros...
But photography is subjective! :D

The photoshoot today was quite fun!

Although I got a rather unsightly tan because of the reflector and the harsh sun. But it was still interesting because I got to walk on the pool at the NP Alumni clubhouse...
yea I walked on it...haha. even got my heels wet.

I haven't seen all the pics though, hope they turn out great! :)

I'm getting psyched hearing about all the details.

Album launch is gona be at St James's Dragonfly!

Anyway, on friday night, we went to send Melody off at the airport. Bert was very sweet. He set up a blog for her, which I will link up soon.

That blog is for her to update us on what's up while she's away...and hopefully she'll wear the beanie and scarf when it gets cold and wont' feel so homesick :)

After that, Lb, Su and me went to meet her friend, Lynn at [Play].
aiyo...sad. seeing all those guys...tsk tsk. sadddd.

Lynn's quite cool...she's 28 but yet she's still rather hip.
I wonder if I'll be hip and open when I'm older...

Ookay, due to a string of good events that happened today...I feel the black cloud above my head raining for the past week has subsided to a drizzle.

=)

I can feel my friends around me heaving a huge sigh of relief...wahaha. :X

There's so much to do suddenly!
I have to get organised.

Wed:
Docpro slot TBC*
Edit and record Radio Asia script
Costume Fitting at Wisma
gotta rush back for lecture
7pm Prelims Audition

Thurs:
Wake up at unearthly hours
head for Geylang filming
Gathering TBC*

Fri:
Preschi presentation.
ooh friday the 13th.
Club with Su (special intention)

Sunday:
Photoshoot.

Next week
Mon-Thurs left for practice for performance
Meanwhile may start batch capturing for recorded footage of thursday.

Weekend:
Filming resumes.

Have to get location release!!!
and it looks like tmr is gona be a full day!

How could Kenneth criticise on Nathan's vocals in his article...

And didn't he get the audience participation joke part when Nathan intentionally asked a member of the audience for his name and concluded that as "audience participation"?

He didn't do him any justice man...and he didn't touch on the part when Nathan sang the rock song to defy critics saying he always sings songs that are "too old for him" either.

I never like to admit I give up.

But, I might be, making this decision I just did.

Sigh.

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I never thought I'd say this but I'm actually quite tired of Preschi.

All that hype?
All dead.

I still love the language, but truth is Life is unfair.
From the past tests, it has made me realise, does working hard pay off?

DOES IT?!
HUH?

























I'm so sick of the constant reminder that
you can work hard all you want, but someone cute or interesting comes along and
BAM!
you're replaced.
when you could have well deserved First Place more.
and I'm always being replaced.
Am I not working hard enough for the things I love?
Perhaps not. But I'm trying.

I seldom think of myself so bhb-ly (lol) but this time I'm really up to my nose with discontentment.

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I think girls who swear hokkien vulgarities in almost every other sentence when they speak are utterly disgraceful.

what a turn off.

Gawd.
I really hate it when my skin tone gets made fun of.
People may think I'm petty or picky...but try thinking of something you really hate about yourself, and imagine it being made fun of.

It's getting hard to try to laugh things off and pretend they don't affect you. But it has always been my style to laugh things off and try not to make a scene.

Then I let it affect me when I'm alone reflecting about things that went on in the day as I shower or clear my thoughts on the way home.

Ever since lower secondary days, I have been very disturbed by my skin colour and the fact that I get tanned damn easily.

To always verbally say it out to friends doesn't mean I am happy with it. I'm merely stating a fact.

People who know me well would probably know I avoid the sun like Vampires do. But not as extreme as them because they would die from it and well, I- would just get dark.
lol...

To have a blog to voice such issues that bother me is great because once I unload them, I feel so much lighter...
But I'm worried that friends who read this, may feel I am using this as a means to "warn" sensitive issues.

I sincerely hope not...as I do not want people around me to feel they have to filter what they say around me.

I always felt it is better to be focus on your flaws so you can improve and make each flaw turn into a strength.

Lately, I find myself losing that ability and am getting very consumed by its negativity.

I know I need braces. But it's not like I'm the next-of-kin to the God of Fortune lol...

Sadly, this might just be my obstacle for moving onto greater heights.

I suppose my only redeeming factor is my height. Which is again, not a big deal being 169cm.
I'm neither model material nor the petite chick that guys seem to like to date.
Maybe I'm really 170cm; but still, no biggie.

I'm in between! how?
die lor, what how? haha...

My refurbished ipod has gone wonky. I think I need to send it to Apple.
!@#$%^&*

That's it. I am never buying Apple products again.
Mac lovers, prove to me why I should still use Apple when it has offered the windows/mac system and is coming up with the double click mouse like we all use now.
Plus, its supposed safe and durable Ipod isn't very safe and durable after all.

THAT'S IT.
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I was thinking about our dinner at Sakae this evening. We are such a noisy bunch. Is that what youthfulness brings about in people?

Sometimes being in a group in those situations can make me very brainless. And as much as I feel very happy during the dinner, the difference after we leave can make me feel a little odd.

When I was standing at the platform towards Pasir Ris, I felt so quiet.
I know "quiet" is an improper adjective in that sentence but I just felt calmness surround me all of a sudden and that makes me feel we were noise pollutants at the restaurant earlier on.

Then I recall JJ's quote and I do think I might actually be
a noisy person trapped in a quiet person's body

I never really understood that phrase until this evening.

Sometimes I feel I have a lot of things to share and rant about. Then I get all quiet because there's actually nothing much.

But when I get quiet, people assume I'm sad/angry/not feeling well.

Does it mean I give people the impression that I'm super chatterboxy? To the point where if I'm just quiet it means I'm definitely sad/angry or not feeling well?
I thought the not feeling well part was quite :O

I get tired too. I have the quiet me too. Sometimes I wonder why am I not that horoscope
双子座, I don't know what's it in english...the one with 2 persons lol.
I get so different in very short spans.
I don't think it means fickle...I'm just...mad?LOL.

I particularly hate the fact that kindness or my willingness to comply gets seen as being a weakling.
This is directed to no one in particular but I've had situations where I'm treated with ill manners and severe lack of respect from my peers.
Is that because I come across as weak? Or as a simpleton you can shout at?

Well, there's such a thing called Karma. And I'm no longer the meek Jing Hui in lower sec and primary school. I can stand up for myself now and if the situation sees the need for me to do so, I guarantee there will be a show for whoever's present.

But of course I don't erupt so easily. I close one eye for as long as I can tolerate.
But if I've reached boiling point...
oh you better be sure to run and run fast.

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.


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The lot of us went to send Tiffany off at the Airport this evening.
She's going Canberra for her Degree and will be heading for Hong Kong after that. She's never returning to Singapore anymore.

Goodbyes are never easy.

I just blogged three entries in half an hour.

Why not combine them, you ask.

well, I don't know either...just read lah! :)

Here are 2 videos the guest lecturer shared with us during Preschi.
The first one's a chewing gum ad (racist unless you imagine the ad creatives ppl are of that race)
and the second's an ad in Australia advising people to belt up.
Honestly, that ad is so much more impactful than our local campaign for belting up.

enjoy~

I was asking Catherine, why are some people just born gorgeous?
she said "命"
haha. how apt.
sigh. How is my "命" then?

I look in the mirror and all I see are flaws.

Everyone in my lecture is used to using the term "perfectionist" to describe the hard-core picky students who mind even which font size goes, etc.

But to me, that's only perfectionism at academic level.
Am I shallow when I always seem to judge people on their appearance?

But I don't go shunning people who may not know green don't exactly go with purple, etc.

I just feel everyone can be better looking, everyone can make an effort to dress up a little more, etc.

Surely you would feel someone with nice fingernails, well-dressed would be more pleasant than someone who is in mismatched clothing and has acne problems?

Of course that's the surface level judging, but I feel that is the part of you to take care of FIRST.

Because everyday, as you make your way to school or work, your image, your body, is what others see first. And it is very important to maintain a clean image.

Of course, academic perfection probably outweighs surface perfection a whole lot but I do believe prettier people always get the better end of the deal.

I can't keep up with my own standards.
I need perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect body, perfect skin tone,etc.

all of which I've only attained half. I've even only got double eyelid on one eye. fuck that.

what good is half!?

OK, Devil JH is dominating Angel Jh today.

bad news......

For the past week, a lot went through my head.

I struggled to keep those voices out of my head as I could hardly hear myself think. Ironic lah, since I'm thinking, but I mean, it was hard to be in reality and be in my own world simultaneously and I kinda screwed the balance a little this week.

I knew I was rather easily agitated this week, and I tried my best to avoid my friends so I would not risk shouting or snapping at one of those whom I care, and most definitely do NOT want to shout at.

I don't know why this came over me all of a sudden. I guess, it's just one of those phases that you realise a little bit more about Life?

And as I'm typing, Blogger is implementing its new system of correcting your words like Microsoft Word. It just underlined "realise" in red because it was an "s" instead of a "z".

oh so anal. Let us blog in peace!

I got quite frustrated at how some things are done and how people do some things.
I hate second guessing all the time and I find myself increasingly having to do that; and not only that, I find myself second guessing my own intentions for the fear of miscommunicating my point to whoever it is.

And it's as if some Dementor swept by my room one night and sucked me of all my happiness and positivity.
pardon the Harry Potter language...can't wait for the movie!

All of a sudden, it seemed as though there's a dark cloud raining above me. I did not even realise how negative I had been until I found words relating to poor looks ringing in my head.
They were ringing about myself, and at an alarming rate and volume until I couldn't comprehend my own inner thoughts.

And matters worsened when I took comments from others a little toooo personally this past week.
Especially radio journ class.
omg...WTF, seriously.

I can't stand myself getting all mean as I complained to Steph. That diva me was frightening.
I hope it gets tucked back into the most remote corner of me and stay there for...now. haha.

I guess I just needed to release all the pent up negativity and now, I'm feeling a lot better after making Catherine and Steph's ears sore. =P
I have not been so angry in such a long time. It was a mixture of exasperation, frustration and anger topped with some low self esteem.

Anyway, such revelations come once in awhile...lol. All I can hope is my EQ increases with each outburst and may each outburst take a longer time to appear in between and last much shorter each time.
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I just went for facial today.
My face...is all red and splotchy now.

Good luck to the strangers who may bump into me tomorrow...may their hearts be strong enough to withstand the shock I may give to them.

LOL. talking cock.

Sometimes...I blog like such an over excited idiot.

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Jason and I went to the Closing Ceremony at the National Stadium ytd. It was such an interesting event at some points.

I never knew soccer could make our sg men get quite worked up. Or perhaps it was just those I happened to sit around.

Vulgarities spewing out like running tap water whenever something crucial happens on the field was enough to make me wonder and understand why there are almost always casualties in matches held in other countries.

and how could we forget the local Classic -Queues and more queues.

The long queue for the prata sausage (sg's version of the Hangzhou ji dan guan bing)
I think we queued 45mins for that?

The long queue for the overpriced drinks. (who could blame them? It's their last chance to make a killing at the National Stadium)
I think we queued for 45mins too and missed the entertainment during the half-time of the match.

Then, we queued again, for the SBS bus which supposedly saves twice as much time but we ended up waiting for an hour and still we didn't spot a single shit after we missed the first (and is that the last?) bus.

So we actually walked all the way to my grandma's place at Old Airport Rd and got a cab because Lady Luck smiled on us.

We concluded that we spent more time queuing/walking than actually enjoying the event...
hahaha.

We left the event at about 10.35pm. I reached home at 12plus.
lol......

SBS...SBS.
Never fails to fail.

I'll post some pics up when I get them from Jason!

Steph and me went to The Esplanade on last Friday to catch
Nathan Hartono's concert at the Recital Studio.
I guess I should credit Trimedia for the free tickets? haha!

He was a-m-a-z-i-n-g. C'mon he's only...15? And he sings with such emotion and with such ease. Belting out jazz tunes after jazz tunes for an hour at that age is no easy feat.
His voice is simply mesmerising.

Ming Bridges as the guest singer was expected yet it came as a surprise as I thought it was His personal concert.

But like all concerts, there was the need for a costume change (sponsored by Tangs, no less, but can be better...hahaha A|X next time round?)
and Ming came in for a duet before going on to a solo bit, doing her own rendition of Corrine Bailey Rae's played to death "Put your record on"

Her performance was lacklustre and rather disappointing. Well, it's hard to sound magnificent I suppose, when Nathan was before you to contrast your vocals.

There's room for improvement, Ming. :)

Oh I speak as if I were an expert. Speaking of which, her personal instructor, Aaron who's freelancing now, I heard, and no longer in Lwssom, was at the event too.
So was Hideaki.

Saw Celester and his friend too. :)

Kenneth and friend came along with us too, and he had a press kit. cool...

I guess, with the chance meeting of all the music people, that Music still links us all eventually......